Spirit Guide

In the past when trying to see my spirit guide I would meditate and enter into a room and feel that my guide was near but Large eagle wings would covers my face and hide my eyes every time. I was unable to see anything but defined brilliant wings. With the help of a spiritual navigator I started in a meditative state and left my body and felt the freedom of being without a shell, I finally released and flew, through the apartment out into the parking lot, over the road and cars. I flew higher, past the Utah smog and into the night sky. I look bellow and saw the lights of the city, trees and the oceans. Higher and higher breaking through a burst of light and I find myself one with the stars, around the rings of Saturn around the sun feeling the warmth against my face. In the distance I see a black hole. Its incredible the swirling whites, blues, greens and every color in between surrounding this hole that draws me in. I feel drawn to it and compelled to let it consume me. I without hesitation soar through its marvel. I burst through the other side and its unlike anything Ive ever seen. The planets are large and spectacular. Brilliant colors and made of love and light. A planet pulls me in like a call home. I enter the planet and it feels welcoming and soothing no pollution or smog and the planet bursts with vibrant colors deep blue water crisp lush and green trees. Its incredible as I soar through the mountains and the trees vibrant with pink and orange as the sun sets in the east welcoming in the 2 brilliant and large moons from the west. Everything is natural organic and beautiful, everything but a very the large and breathtaking castle. I sore around the castle taking it all in. The windows all burst with stain glass. I soar around searching for an entry and see a double wooden door in the high center pillar. I settle on the north tower that connects to the center pillar. I feel the cool stone beneath my feet, I follow the path to the center pillar while taking in the surroundings the wonder the beauty. I enter through the heavy double doors and walk through the cathedral top hallway. The evening's final light filling the room with color, warmth and brilliance. Up ahead I see a spiral staircase leading down into a large room that awaits me. I follow the stair case down taking in the brilliance and the light streaming in from the stain glass. The room is filled with rugs of every shape and size from Native American leathers to woven Indi rugs. I feel the different textures under my feet as I walk towards the hallway of doors and high vaulted ceilings. The hallway is dark though I see every detail as I walk the long stretch past the doors of dark wood and metal handles. I see a spectacular and brilliant light coming from the door just ahead, As I stand before it the brilliant door highlighted in such light I can make out only one word on the door "Aiyana" and feel an overwhelming knowledge that I finally remembered my true name who I truly am its indescribable, I take a deep breath and push the heavy doors open. I enter the room that contains only a small bird in the corner. The heavy doors close behind me as though filling with a thick and powerful smoke like light it fills the room a brilliant pink with streams of white and blue. I look for the bird however the bird now gone and I take in the light and open my heart and mind to what ever I may see in this room. A dark shadow of a man and large mass next to it walks towards me. The color dissolves into the background though still prevalent no longer consuming my room and mind. The figure becomes more defined and clear. A faceless Native American man walks towards me with his hand on the back of a large magnificent and beautiful male lion. He presents the lion to me and with a hand over his chest disappears. I know this man, but it is not our time I am here to meet him, My guide, My Lion, my totem is a Lion. I feel surprised and yet a feeling that I already knew this knew him, I thank him for his guidance and love. I ask to be allowed to see him again feel his energy again Without a definitive answer I am drawn to him everything in my heart telling me to walk towards him. I approach my large and powerful lion and feel his hair tickle my face as he wraps his magnificent paw around my back and pulls me close I am consumed with heavy and powerful love that seems to ground me while his large paw and muscles are tightly around me. Hearing a loud and loving purr escape out of his chest and into mine. I step back still feeling him consume me. He sits proudly in front of me chest out and face focused and strong. I need not ask what to do or say we understand each other. I can feel it becoming time to leave him and though I feel sadness to part from him I feel strong and confident that he is not going far. He looks me in the eyes and turns to walk away. With every step he dissolves into the stonewall. I collect myself as the light begins to dissolve and turn towards the double doors. I walk through the doors and enter the hallway not really noticing much, my mind and heart still in the room. I begin up the staircase and exit the double doors leading me to star filled sky. The castle brilliantly lit up without lanterns or lights, a brilliant white. The surrounding land dark barely lit up by the large almost yellow moons. The sky breathtaking with stars and large indescribable planet so close I could almost touch it just by reaching out. I step out to the ledge of the North tower and into the nights sky. I am larger now somehow more brilliant myself. I sore through the night sky and into the atmosphere leaving the beautiful planet behind me. I make my way through black hole into our universe. I make my way to the planet my body calls home and find my way through mountains and city lights to my neighborhood. I fly through the parking lot and into my apartment and over my body. Exactly where I left it still breathing and motionless only a tear moves. I make my way over my body's head and poor myself into it feeling like a melon squeezing through a mustard jar I take it slowly not to throw myself into shock. My shoulders feel heavy my body now tight and full. It is hard to be back into a tight shell after being free. I am back, my eyes taking too long to adjust. I weep uncontrollably missing my castle my guide my home away from home. My guide told me he led me as far as the black hole and felt strongly I was able to continue on my own. Asked what I saw and told me the room filled with a pink and pale blue ora and a powerful energy was present.  I made my way to my book shelf and find the "Animal speak" book and look up my lion. The first thing I read is that eagles are lions earthly opponent. I research the name Aiyana to find it means eternally blooming and is a common Native American word and is common with all tribes so the name itself is faceless or without specific identifiers